22 September 2014

Facts about Me

I know I should do this on Instagram (or facebook) and I did. But in the middle of my deadlines plus sakit kepala akibat kemaren kehujanan pas mau ke wedding temen, so here I am.. Mencari sedikit hiburan dengan writing (again but different plus additional) facts about me, it's so fun!

Before I start it, kemaren gwe baru attended 2 weddings of my close friends... Kenapa dari 365 hari dalam setahun mereka harus milih hari dan tanggal dan jam yang sama. Yang membuat gwe harus keluar duluan pas makan-makan di wedding pertama dan nyampe di wedding kedua setelah makanannya ludes....... dan berakhir di burger king jam 11.30 malam, kelaparan, sendiri. But anyway, i'm so happy for both of them, satu temen SMA, satu temen kuliah :") Congratulation July Sianetta dan Janice Gunawan!

Let's start my 20 facts:
1. I'm a first born in Family, that's the reason i have (or had) my choleric temperament i guess.
2. I used to be a choleric sanguine, but i don't know why, it changed to melancholic phlegmatic according to last personality test.
3. I am an observer, i can somehow know what happened between x and y, i know someone is not in good mood while actually they don't show it in publicly. I also sometimes know x likes y just because the stare of their eyes. You may say, i can read eyes-gazing. #HOHO
4. I love to read, i used to read 'til 3 am but then comes the media named instagram. But i do still read, sometimes.
5. I love to write, and actually i figured out this passion after my broke up at high school, and i'm so grateful for it because i finally know what my passion is.
6. People who not know me well might say i'm so jutek and nyebelin (though they do not know me yet) 'til they know me, they end up with saying the reverse version.
7. As i grow up, i learn to let things go, i learn that some people meant to be there and some not. I learn that in seasons of life, people come and go. But it's okay, they were (or are) there for a reason, and just be thankful for it.
8. I cry a lot. I cry when i'm sad, i cry when i'm mad, i cry when i'm happy, i cry when i'm sick, i cry A LOT.
9. I'm an extrovert person, but most of the times i prefer lock my self in my bedroom and just have ME time in doing nothing or go to bookstore alone. Well, actually i'm still figuring out whether i'm an introvert or extrovert one. HEHE
10. I have tons of friend but little of best friend, so little 'til i can count by my fingers. 
11. 'Lo bahagia gak sih sama hidup lo?' is the strangest question that ever asked to me, and I.. didn't answer that question that time because.. well..... what is the concrete measure of happiness?
12. 'Selama hidup kamu, apa yang paling kamu sesalin?' is the strangest question number 2 that ever asked to me and i answered.... nothing. Because after years i've realized that everything happens for a reason and all things work together for my good :)
13. Since i was a 'lil girl, i've longed for an older sister who i can talk with about anything. And as time goes by, many girls came to my life and gladly i can say, they're my sister. Some left, but it's okay. #backtonumber7
14. My favorite song is 'you are my hiding place by selah'. When i'm overwhelmed by all things, i listen to this song, and i cry :") my weird way to relieve feelings.
15. Have i told you, i'm an overthinker person?
16. I have 'short-term-memory' i guess. I'm easily forget something (even the important ones like curhatan orang-orang) sampai pas mereka cerita 'inget gak sih gwe pernah cerita tentang blablablabla' dan gwe cuma bisa geleng-geleng. 
17. I don't like routines things, but sometimes i also don't have enough courage to make something new neither.
18. People often say i'm a labil person. And yes i am. I'm in my most labil moment when it comes to shopping time. 
19. I love to meet new people, i like to make new friendship with people but i think i don't have the skill in maintaining friends but when it comes to best friend, we can spend months without talking to each other but when we meet, it's like 24 hours a day were not enough.
20. I love doing this stuff! It's a fun way to explore yourself, knowing who are you in unique way, and i spent 30 minutes to make these 20 list.

HAHAHA i'm done! It's much longer that what i posted on instagram, and btw, kak theresia tagged me to do 'The Reader's challenge: quickly list 10 books that have stayed with u in some way' and here they are:

1. Bible (should i mention why?)
2. Sacred singleness by Leslie Ludy
3. I kissed dating goodbye by Joshua Harris
4. When God says YES by Julia Loren
5. How to hear from God by Joyce Meyer
6. Blessed highly favored by McKinney Hammond
7. Beautiful things happen when a woman trusts God by Sheila Walsh
8. Love your life by Victoria Osteen
9. Novel Zoom by Rina Suryakusuma
10. All novel written by Agnes Jessica

now currently listening to: indah pada waktu-Nya by edward chen (laptopnya temen sebelah yang lagi nyalain lagu)

10 September 2014

'Where can I go from Your Spirit?'

This sentence popped up in my heart when we had prayer meeting at my church last night, dan berhasil bikin gwe mewek. Because of some reasons, days before gwe berpikir gwe akan menyerah dan mundur dari pelayanan. Gwe akan mundur from all church-things. Dan actually gwe udah gak pengen dateng that prayer meeting, tapi akhirnya gwe memutuskan untuk dateng dan bilang sama Tuhan, 'Tuhan, speak to me tonight..'

Pas lagi praise and worship, His Presence was so strong dan out of nowhere, Tuhan kayak spoke gently through my heart 'where can you go from My Spirit?'. Shocked, yes. Makin shock ketika Pst. Andy pas diatas panggung ngomong begini... 'Kalau mau mundur, itu maunya Tuhan atau maunya kamu?' Sepanjang He shared things, gwe cuma bisa banjir. He knows nothing about i'm going to give up yet He shared that thing. 

Selesai prayer meeting, one of my best friend came to him and told him to pray for me. Another mewek moment I had.. Dan malam itu, I know God really spoke to me. 

Where can you go from My Spirit, dear?

Pagi ini gwe buka facebook dan gwe liat link video tentang anak kecil lucu lagi ceritain kisah Yunus. Temen gwe yang ngepost mungkin cuma ngepost karena lucu, dan pas gwe nonton... somehow it touched my heart... Kisah Yunus inget? Dia berusaha kabur dari Tuhan, dia naik kapal yang lain, dia ngumpet di dek kapal dan berpikir mungkin Tuhan gak bisa catch dia. But you know, Tuhan nemuin dia, even ketika dia dibuang ke laut dan masuk perut ikan, it much deeper than dek kapal, bahkan bisa dibilang udah di dasar laut, tapi Tuhan tetep denger doa dia, tetep nemuin dia. What caught my heart through this story is.... Tuhan mau nunjukin ke Yunus, ampe dia nyasar di perut ikan aja tuh Tuhan bisa lihat dan bisa catch him. 

Mau ngumpet kemana sih dari Tuhan? Mau kabur sampe kemana dari prosesnya Tuhan? Where can you go from His Spirit? :"""""

ps: currently listening to this song, repeat and repeat again.'sekalipun kuberjalan dalam lembah kekelaman, tak akan gentar ku melangkah s'bab Engkau besertaku..'


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05 September 2014

Safe vs Secure

"No one assure walking as Christian will be a safe journey to go, but it surely SECURE because God is within you." 

Seperti Daud yang berani untuk nantangin Goliat, it's not a safe decision, it's a suicide decision for most of all the people but not for David. It's not safe, but David felt SECURE in God because he knows God is fighting for him.

1 Samuel 17:45 Tetapi Daud berkata kepada orang Filistin itu: "Engkau mendatangi aku dengan pedang dan tombak dan lembing, tetapi aku mendatangi engkau dengan nama TUHAN semesta alam, Allah segala barisan Israel yang kautantang itu.

Seperti kisah Gideon melawan musuhnya hanya dengan 300 tentara, seperti kisah Yusuf untuk beranjak mencapai janji yang Tuhan kasih buat dia, seperti kisah Musa yang disuruh ngadep Firaun untuk bawa Israel pergi, seperti kisah Yosua merebut tanah kanaan dan seperti banyak lainnya kasus di Alkitab yang kelihatannya riskan dan gak aman, tapi cuma satu kesimpulannya yang sama yang dilakukan oleh semua tokoh tersebut, they just have the fully obedience and be secure in God because they all know God is with them.

Is God telling you something to do, something to say, somewhere to go which seems not safe for you, which seems illogical for you? What will we choose? Safety? or Secureness in God? If we're looking for safety, we might end up pleasing people, pleasing ourselves, pleasing our ego, pleasing our comfort zone. But if you choose secure, you will not care about what people think and say as long as you just want to obey what God tells you.

ps: currently listening to 'the more I seek You' by Steffany Frizzel